Wednesday, February 15, 2006
pixelated
i feel not good enough, again. i feel vulnerable, small. and i know that i've let my heart open again. i can only keep you inside me for so much, encapsulated, encased in longing and secrecy. i wish sometimes i can believe you as easy as it was, before i got gunned down by hoards of malignant lies, slander, falseful accusations and dark drama. i wish i can just let myself go and believe.
i past by the window and the breeze and a silent beauty drew me to its side. The song i just want to be where you are came into my mind and i was touched. just touched, simply.
i dont want to ask for too much. i want to give more. im not gonna just make sure im happy, but i wanna remember how its like to hold my breath, suck in a huge ball of self control.... and love, you.
♠ wynnie 12:43 AM
